As I sit here and type I am sad and lonely because I thought I was coming to Ruidoso for a "reunion" of sorts and a grand opening of a youth building but found out that the grand opening had been postponed.  I am saddened. 

I am also sad because my TWIG is up here with her "father" this weekend.  I agreed that he could have her week after next for his spring break.  I am going to be very sad without her for a week.  Why does life have to be so complicated?

I also don't know that I will accept a position in Carlsbad even though I wish I could prove to myself and others that I can handle TWIG without help but  life isn't meant to be that way right now I guess.